Whilst I was in Koh Samui, one of the girls I met gave me some great recommendations for Koh Tao. At the time I kind of accepted I was going to have to miss it out on this trip, as I simply did not have the time but as the weather turned for the worse in Koh Phangan and the people I was hanging out with were leaving I decided to change the plan; get the ferry and spend a night in Koh Tao and find out what all the fuss was about. This doesn’t sound drastic at all but for someone who likes routine and planning this made me slightly nervous.
I packed a small bag, hopped on the ferry, about to take on a new adventure. What initially was going to be just one night turned into two as one night would not give me the time to explore the island fully, and I’m so glad I did, as again I did something that I had never done before and tackled this fear of water head on: snorkeling.
With this whole fobia of water, I realised that it was panicking in the water that I struggled with. Though when I realised that I, myself am in control of the situation and as long as I take control and stay calm, everything would be fine, even if my feet can’t touch the ground.
My snorkeling experience was incredible, we went on 5 different stops around the island, the first being Koh Nang Yuan. At the top of this island you see a view that I have only ever seen on postcards. Despite the sweltering trek and climbing over the rocks, that view took my breath away; I was in paradise.
I got my snorkeling gear on and I told the instructor that I wasn’t a strong swimmer. Moments before I got in the water I saw someone flailing around in the ocean who had to be saved as they had lost control. This really made me feel nervous about trying this for the first time. Luckily for me the instructor let me take hold of a float and he guided me around the Koh Nang Yuan bay and I saw things that I had never seen before: rainbow fish, coral, clown fish. And it didn’t stop there. With every stop we went to I was blown away by the beauty of the world in the ocean that I had never seen before. I swam with fishes big and small, saw every character from Finding Nemo and even saw a couple sharks and a turtle that was so big it must have been 100 years old.
That day was a very special day; a day of firsts and overcoming my fears and anxieties. As the sunset set on the boat on our way back to the port, I thought to myself, this is the attitude I need to maintain going forward: fearlessness and being open to new things.